Aaj aankh mein nami si hai

Aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai,
Dil ne phir kiya hai tumhe yaad,
jab zindagi main khal rahi tumhari kami si hai,
Sab yadein ho gayi hai dhundli,
abh inpe waqt ki dhul jami si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai.

Na jaane dil kyon sunta raha,
jo tumne kabhi kaha nahi,
Tere izhaar-e-mohabbat ka ik waham tha,
abh woh bhi raha nahi,
Kab tak chalate is waham se ishq ki gaadi,
abh iski bhi raftaar kuch thami si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai.

Har pal, har lamha jo guzar gaya,
woh tere intezaar ka gawah hai,
Dil kitna bhi kahe bhulade use,
tu aaj bhi iske dhadakne ki ik wajah hai,
Abh tak ud raha tha dil ishq ke jhute aasmaan mein,
abh isko mili ek zameen si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai, thodi nami si hai.

Dil-e-nadaan

Aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun,

kyon udta hai tu kwhashihon ke asmaan main,

kya dhundhe hai tu is gumshuda jahan main,

kyon dekhe hazaaron sapne, kuch pure aur baaki adhure,

jo ho sake pure aise sapne tu bun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

kyon jaag jaata hai tu ansuni aahton se,

kyon behak jaata hai tu ankahi baaton se,

yeh aahtein yeh baatein,

kuch aur nahi, hain yeh teri apni hi dhun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

yeh manzil ki chaahat to ek chalawa hai,

dikhe jo manzil tujhe, woh manzil nahi ek dhikhawa hai,

yeh chalawa yeh dikhawa,

jo le jaaye tujhe in sab se dur aisi rah tu chun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

Split Personality - Rare or Rampant

I know you might ask that what kind of moot question is that, how can a disease that is only seen and heard about in movies and thrillers can be rampant? But I would have to expostulate here because as I see it, it is the most common disease among all humans, although not is strictly medical terms but in more profound terms. Rather this is one disease that we fight out every second of our lives and this disease thrives on the great amount of uncertainty in our lives.

Let me put it this way, how many of you have never felt an inner struggle while making a momentous decision that will have great implications on your lives. Now take a moment and ruminate that while you are experiencing that inner jousting there are actually two contrasting personalities, each part of you, espousing different possibilities that will sway your decision. If one is supporting your decision, then the other one is by default against that decision and both of them will present arguments, though not at the same time because that is impossible as both are actually one person, you.

Hence during every moment of your life you are going through this process, fighting with your alter ego. It is akin to a courtroom drama with one exception that in this court you are everybody, the victim, the prosecutor, and ultimately the judge as it is you will decide the matter and nobody else. And sometimes it happens that even after you have made your decision after listening to both (of your) sides, you feel that it was not you who made this choice because you cant make such choices. Such feelings always develop because while making your decision you always accepts yourself and deny yourself at the same time. Hence the part of you that is rejected makes you feel that you didnt make that decision and somebody did it for you. And if this decision turns out to be wrong in some sense, then this feeling just grows stronger.

I will try to expound this theory with certain pertinent examples. The best example that I could think of is poker. Many a times it happens that you see the flop and there is only an outside chance that you will win the hand and suddenly your opponent raises the stakes. Considering your slender chance to win it you have already decided to fold and then comes the moment of truth. You knew that you are going to fold but the next thing you know is that you have too raised the stakes and then you loose the hand which happens more often than naught. Then you ask yourself the same question, who did that because I was most certain that I was going to fold but who raised the stakes. It was you my dear, the other part of your split personality, that was more dominant in that moment, and since its decision turned out to be wrong, you are not ready to accept that it was you and not somebody else. Because by not accepting the other part of your personality, the culprit one in this case, it becomes easier for you as then you have some unknown force to blame for your wrong decisions. And if you accept that it was you and not somebody else to be held responsible for this disaster, it becomes unbearable for you, because you know at the back of your mind that the other part of you was right and you could have staved off this failure, only if you had listened to mr. right of your personality.

Poker is just a simple example, but this happens to us all the time. Every single and however small decision in our life is taken by one of the parts of our personalities. And there is no mr. right or mr. wrong while making that decision, these labels are chosen afterwards depending upon the outcome of that decision.

Hence you see that split personality is not rare as we all think, rather it is the most inseparable part of a human being. So next time when you are making a decision and you are stuck while making your choices, you know that you not fighting with somebody else but with yourself only.

Dogs who bark seldom bite

BJP was vociferous and unequivocal in castigating the govt for all the unraveled scams and corruption as if corruption is Congress' brainchild alone. They were assiduous in bludgeoning the incumbents with tirades incessantly, not even a single opportunity was forsaken. But now when it has come to the real deal in alleviating this malignant disease, not even a single stalwart of Bogus Jhaalsaaz Party (I may be wrong) has come out and espoused this national movement.

This insouciance from BJP has proved nothing but reinforced a simple yet a well-known fact that Congress or BJP they are all the same, apotheosis of turpitude, shilly-shallying as ever while making bold and righteous decisions.

The wife of the great SPARTACUS once said "kill and kill them all", though I would not resort to such despicable and gory measures, rather I would urge to incarcerate- all and sundry, and lets salvage our polity with a new beginning and a novel breed of politicians.

Let the game begin...........

Things I should have said.....but couldnt SAY!

Hello fellas,

I guess the title of this blog is self-explanatory. many a times it happens with us that we are very desperate to say something to somebody but at the very last moment we feel choked and words simply cant come out of our mouth. That somebody can be anybody, he/she might be among the closest persons to you like your parents or siblings or can be your best buddy or even the girl you have been following for the last one year but never spoke to her.

These are not the big things we intend to say, just simple thanks or a small token of appreciation and compassion, which actually takes less effort than required for raising a finger, but for some unknown reasons that moment feels like the heaviest as if the burden of this whole planet has been put on you.

Lets take the example of our parents especially fathers. We know how much we love them and they too are aware of this feeling but still we are not able to express this feeling clearly and more importantly comfortably. There is always an invisible wall between us and our parents that stops us from coming across articulately. We will do anything for them, yet we cant say how we feel about them, that we love them more than anything else in this world. Where its so difficult for us to show our love for them, we find it extremely easy to argue with them and more often than not we end up hurting them. And the most perplexing thing is that while arguing with them we know at the back of our mind that somethings wrong but still we persist, only god knows why, because if we knew we wont do it in first place.

Since we say so many things that offend them it becomes more important to express your love once in a while by saying simple things like "I love u dad" or "only you could do this for me". I know its easier said than done but at least we can try. So lets try to make them happy while we have the chance so that we dont regret in the future and think that i should have said this.

Now the same goes for the girl you like but dont have the guts to tell her how deeply you are in love with her. You are always under the fear that if you tell her she would hold you in low regard. See that is the irony here, if you dont tell her at all you will never know how she felt about you. Who knows you may be in for a surprise, so its always better to take your chances than holding back your emotions.

So go out there and tell the world how you feel about it because if you dont then only you are going to regret that there were lot of things i wanted to say but i couldnt.

I was so HAPPY....Then I met YOU-The Two States

If u had read my last blog (I am ALIVE..)by any chance and liked it (again by chance) there is a possibility that u will like this one as well...so just be kind and be patient to finish this blog...

First of all let me clear whose YOU here, YOU is that someone special whom we like very much and if she is not there with us our life turns into a misery...well this is atleast what we think. But cross ur heart and tell me how many of u really believe this? (and pls be honest atleast to urself). Good now that u know what the truth is we can proceed.

There is a great theory called 'Theory of Relativity', which says that in this world everything is relative, even the important states of 'Happiness (H State)' and 'Misery (M State)'. We always tend to compare our states with people around us and then we decide for ourselves which of the two states to get into. In a way, the actions of people prove to be more decisive than our own actions while deciding the H or M State for us.(Pls be patient im coming back to the topic)

Just like the two states discussed earlier, we have two sets of people in this world- Committed (C) and Single (S). With two states and two sets, it seems perfect mathematics (just like 2 variables and 2 equations), but the irony is that nobody knows that which variable fits in which equation.

This irony can be explained using earlier mentioned 'Theory of Relativity'. Scenario 1: An S guy sees a C guy with his someone special and immediately marks H state for C guy and M state for himself. Scenario 2: Now imagine a scenario when a C guy sitting alone with his someone special sees an S guy with his buddies (enjoying and lol), there is a high probability that the states will exchange sets now.

U must be feeling that these scenarios are just my imagination, but believe me i have done enough research before making all these notions public. I belong to set S so I myself have experienced scenario 1 and when i talked to some of my committed friends that is when i came to know that scenario 2 also exists. One of my committed frnds admitted that he envies my S status as he is not able to enjoy fully with his frnds because of extra responsibilities that come along with the C status. In return I said that I envy his position as I miss that someone special with whom I can share some sensitive moments. (its not that my frnds are not sensitive, but there is some stuff which only a girl would understand).

So u c, grass is always green on the other side. I mean if u belong to set S and u believe that ur in state M (kindly note that u believe, u might not actually be in state M) then changing ur set to C does not guarantee ur transition to state H. It is u who will ultimately decide the state for u and not the set u belong to or people u think can.

I am 'ALIVE', really?

I am alive and u would say so r u.....but hang on a min, sit down, rest yourself for a moment on a chair, take a deep breath and now try to figure out whether u r alive or simply living. Ok, let me put it this way.....do u really remember wen was the last time u spent a whole day without worrying about anything, and i mean anything.....now go back some 10-15 years back (for some it may be even longer).....visualise ur self in a dirty white shirt and ever dirtier black shoes...a tie barely hanging around your neck.......yes u guessed it right i am taking u back to your school days and u will realise that how exciting life used to be and u never worried about anything rather u looked forward to all the things and surprises.

lets figure out what has actually changed since then?

Start with an average day of that period....ur mother coming into ur room after every two mins to make sure that you are up and you asking for some more time, just like your manager keeps checking on you and you replying with "its almost done sir".

then ur ready to leave for school (and office, now) and u r pushing ur cycle so hard to reach ur destination that even Aamir Khan (I presume all of u have seen 'jo jeeta wohi sikandar' and if not then please stop right here and watch the movie first) would be proud of u.....just like u rush to your office these days......with a slight difference that now you are probably traveling on two extra tyres.....which makes sense since u surely have put on some extra pounds too.

now ur ready to take on ur job which was study in school and work in office......ur teacher has been replaced by ur manager now, both having the same kind of influence on ur life, evaluating ur performance and contributing their bit in deciding ur future.

in school u had frnds or classmates who in corporate world are called colleagues...........u spent some hours in school and some in ur coaching centre, with total duration roughly being equal to the time u spent in office.

All in all the life, the kind of people and the whole universe around u is almost the same it used to be, then why this feel that it was so much better back then and it sucks big time now. As a famous song from DevD says "Kahan Chali Gayi Hai Saali Khushi........."

I would say its right dere in front of u, and its u who has turned its back on it. Observe small things happening around u and u will realise that world is still the same, its still beautiful and so funny that every moment u will find something to cheer about......it could be the way ur manager speaks or blinks his eyes, or people doing and saying all kind of funny stuff to impress others...it could be anything....

So moral of the story is that u can turn even worst of the conditions into moments to cherish forever, provided u have the right kind of attitude and will to see the lighter side of life and always remember that "whatever happens, happens for good"..........