Lost in Mediocrity...

If u are an intellectually mediocre person and u realize the fact that u are mediocre then u are probably in the worst place and state of mind. You are incessantly sandwiched between people of two categories - one who are below average but dont realize their limitations and the other who are superior to you and u find it difficult to keep pace with them. The first category of oblivious gentlemen (polite way to address imbeciles) does not challenge u intellectually but it does indeed test your temperament and people management skills. These people are so unaware of their follies that they generally grow confident, and even worse over-confident of their intuitive opinions. They obviously feel that their perspective is among the best if not the best and its hard to reason with them because of two reasons. First is that their judgement is obscured by their intellectual limitation and second is your mediocrity. They are in a happy and satisfied state of mind since they believe that they have a done a great job, but this is where your mediocrity starts to tear you apart. Being a mediocre person you possess better intellectual capabilities than the aforementioned gentlemen which allows you to assess that opinions presented by them are not good enough and if given a little a more effort and deliberation you can come up with much better options, but since you are below super intelligent category u are hard pressed to find better alternatives at that moment and in turn cant win ur argument with below average people due to lack of better alternatives. This is where your patience is tested by your good friends who obviously are under the impression that their suggestions are like panacea and chances of figuring out better options are well nigh ZERO.

Now i move to the second category - the super-intelligent or rather people with better mental capabilities than mediocre. You secretly admire their prowess and ability to think, speak, react, breath....in exceptional manner in intractable situations, adulate them and dream of becoming like them.  You want to learn from them in order to be a part of them and for that u need to be in constant company of such people, and this is where your trouble starts. While physically u could be a part of this league of extraordinary gentlemen, but mentally u find it incredibly difficult to garner that sense of belonging. you are always a step or two behind them and are afraid that if u share ur opinions they will know of your inferior mental capabilities. But if you are around for a long time, its inevitable that u will share ur opinion and from that moment onward u live under the constant consternation that they have taken cognizance of ur mental inferiority and feel that ur presence in the elite group is incongruous.

Perhaps this is the reason that everybody says we should find like-minded people. For me the right set of like-minded people would be with equal mental capabilities rather than people with common beliefs and opinion, because with level playing field it wud be lot easier to bring thoughts to the table, without the exasperation or consternation, and have a healthy and probably productive communication.

Enough......

मंदिर तेरा बनने ना देंगे
मस्जिद तेरी रेह्ने ना देंगे
बरदाश्त की हद हो चुकी पार
तेरे नाम पे ओर खून बेह्ने ना देंगे

लाखों कट गय धर्म के नाम पे
पर तू चुपचाप देखता रहा,
इनसान तो है धर्म का घुलाम,
पर तू कैसे सेह्ता रहा

राम ने ना बोला पंडित को
ओर jesus ने ना रोका पाधरी को,
जब अल्लाह भी है इक रुप ही तेरा
फिर क्यू गिरने दिया तूने बाबरी को

इस्लाम को कर बद्नाम वोह जिहाद के नाम पे लड़ता गया
गुजरात में जब गिरा पहला कतरा तो राम पे खून का रंग chadta गया,
इसमे भी है भला किसी का, इसमे भी है मर्जी तेरी
यह सोच कर वोह जिया जिसके लिए
उसी धर्म कि सूली वोह chadta गया

Exile or Death?

Finally the most over-Hyped, Stated and Anticipated- event of Modi's coronation has been concluded. I don't want to sound like a naysayer, but Modi's fans need a reality check. In this age of coalition politics no one can rule with an iron fist (not even the Almighty NaMo, unbelievable...believe it...Yes u guessed it right this line is straight from Ripley's), so I won't be surprised if all the tall claims of BJP and the El Doradoic hopes of Modi followers fall flat on their face. If BJP comes to power next year (which I am afraid to death it will), it will only endorse the dirty brand of politics BJP has been practicing in the recent past. By incessantly stalling the Parliament, BJP is effectively blackmailing and coercing people to elect it or else it will bring the machinery of this country to a grinding halt. Agreed this government is probably the most corrupt government in the history of our country (Im saying probably because probably there were more corrupt governments but unfortunately their shenanigans remained clandestine as the media and people were not as aware and effective in those days as they are today), but it still does not justify BJP's behavior in the Parliament. But unfortunately at the national stage we don't have much choice, its either Corrupt Congress or Bumptious BJP (this adjective is more appropriate for Modi, and now they are saying that Modi is BJP and BJP is Modi, hence used). I truly hope that AAP does well in Delhi and manages to run the complex city in an efficient manner and once they have done that, they should storm into the national arena (and there won't be any relocation problem as the prominent members of the party are already in Delhi).....Na hai Makaan or na hi Dukaan phir bhi MERA BHARAT MAHAAN.

Tanhaian

Aye dil tu in tanhaion se kyu darta hai,
Tanhaion main hi to sach sukun milta hai,
Kyu doob jaata hai tu gham ke andheron main,
Jab kisi ke saath ka suraj dhalta hai,
Koi nahi saath rahega hamesha tere,
Koi nahi sada saath chalta hai,
Phir kyu tu in tanhaion se darta hai,

Jaata hai tu paas jinke bhagkar in tanhaion se,
Ek din ayega woh bhagenge tere hi parchaion se,
Us din toot jayega saath ka yeh weham tera,
Jinse aaj tera jee behelta hai,
Bas reh jayegi yeh tanhai hi saath tere,
To phir kyu tu in tanhaion se darta hai

Aaj aankh mein nami si hai

Aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai,
Dil ne phir kiya hai tumhe yaad,
jab zindagi main khal rahi tumhari kami si hai,
Sab yadein ho gayi hai dhundli,
abh inpe waqt ki dhul jami si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai.

Na jaane dil kyon sunta raha,
jo tumne kabhi kaha nahi,
Tere izhaar-e-mohabbat ka ik waham tha,
abh woh bhi raha nahi,
Kab tak chalate is waham se ishq ki gaadi,
abh iski bhi raftaar kuch thami si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai.

Har pal, har lamha jo guzar gaya,
woh tere intezaar ka gawah hai,
Dil kitna bhi kahe bhulade use,
tu aaj bhi iske dhadakne ki ik wajah hai,
Abh tak ud raha tha dil ishq ke jhute aasmaan mein,
abh isko mili ek zameen si hai,
aaj phir aankh mein thodi nami si hai, thodi nami si hai.

Dil-e-nadaan

Aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun,

kyon udta hai tu kwhashihon ke asmaan main,

kya dhundhe hai tu is gumshuda jahan main,

kyon dekhe hazaaron sapne, kuch pure aur baaki adhure,

jo ho sake pure aise sapne tu bun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

kyon jaag jaata hai tu ansuni aahton se,

kyon behak jaata hai tu ankahi baaton se,

yeh aahtein yeh baatein,

kuch aur nahi, hain yeh teri apni hi dhun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

yeh manzil ki chaahat to ek chalawa hai,

dikhe jo manzil tujhe, woh manzil nahi ek dhikhawa hai,

yeh chalawa yeh dikhawa,

jo le jaaye tujhe in sab se dur aisi rah tu chun,

aye dil-e-nadaan kabhi meri bhi sun, kabhi meri bhi sun

Split Personality - Rare or Rampant

I know you might ask that what kind of moot question is that, how can a disease that is only seen and heard about in movies and thrillers can be rampant? But I would have to expostulate here because as I see it, it is the most common disease among all humans, although not is strictly medical terms but in more profound terms. Rather this is one disease that we fight out every second of our lives and this disease thrives on the great amount of uncertainty in our lives.

Let me put it this way, how many of you have never felt an inner struggle while making a momentous decision that will have great implications on your lives. Now take a moment and ruminate that while you are experiencing that inner jousting there are actually two contrasting personalities, each part of you, espousing different possibilities that will sway your decision. If one is supporting your decision, then the other one is by default against that decision and both of them will present arguments, though not at the same time because that is impossible as both are actually one person, you.

Hence during every moment of your life you are going through this process, fighting with your alter ego. It is akin to a courtroom drama with one exception that in this court you are everybody, the victim, the prosecutor, and ultimately the judge as it is you will decide the matter and nobody else. And sometimes it happens that even after you have made your decision after listening to both (of your) sides, you feel that it was not you who made this choice because you cant make such choices. Such feelings always develop because while making your decision you always accepts yourself and deny yourself at the same time. Hence the part of you that is rejected makes you feel that you didnt make that decision and somebody did it for you. And if this decision turns out to be wrong in some sense, then this feeling just grows stronger.

I will try to expound this theory with certain pertinent examples. The best example that I could think of is poker. Many a times it happens that you see the flop and there is only an outside chance that you will win the hand and suddenly your opponent raises the stakes. Considering your slender chance to win it you have already decided to fold and then comes the moment of truth. You knew that you are going to fold but the next thing you know is that you have too raised the stakes and then you loose the hand which happens more often than naught. Then you ask yourself the same question, who did that because I was most certain that I was going to fold but who raised the stakes. It was you my dear, the other part of your split personality, that was more dominant in that moment, and since its decision turned out to be wrong, you are not ready to accept that it was you and not somebody else. Because by not accepting the other part of your personality, the culprit one in this case, it becomes easier for you as then you have some unknown force to blame for your wrong decisions. And if you accept that it was you and not somebody else to be held responsible for this disaster, it becomes unbearable for you, because you know at the back of your mind that the other part of you was right and you could have staved off this failure, only if you had listened to mr. right of your personality.

Poker is just a simple example, but this happens to us all the time. Every single and however small decision in our life is taken by one of the parts of our personalities. And there is no mr. right or mr. wrong while making that decision, these labels are chosen afterwards depending upon the outcome of that decision.

Hence you see that split personality is not rare as we all think, rather it is the most inseparable part of a human being. So next time when you are making a decision and you are stuck while making your choices, you know that you not fighting with somebody else but with yourself only.