Let me put it this way, how many of you have never felt an inner struggle while making a momentous decision that will have great implications on your lives. Now take a moment and ruminate that while you are experiencing that inner jousting there are actually two contrasting personalities, each part of you, espousing different possibilities that will sway your decision. If one is supporting your decision, then the other one is by default against that decision and both of them will present arguments, though not at the same time because that is impossible as both are actually one person, you.
Hence during every moment of your life you are going through this process, fighting with your alter ego. It is akin to a courtroom drama with one exception that in this court you are everybody, the victim, the prosecutor, and ultimately the judge as it is you will decide the matter and nobody else. And sometimes it happens that even after you have made your decision after listening to both (of your) sides, you feel that it was not you who made this choice because you cant make such choices. Such feelings always develop because while making your decision you always accepts yourself and deny yourself at the same time. Hence the part of you that is rejected makes you feel that you didnt make that decision and somebody did it for you. And if this decision turns out to be wrong in some sense, then this feeling just grows stronger.
I will try to expound this theory with certain pertinent examples. The best example that I could think of is poker. Many a times it happens that you see the flop and there is only an outside chance that you will win the hand and suddenly your opponent raises the stakes. Considering your slender chance to win it you have already decided to fold and then comes the moment of truth. You knew that you are going to fold but the next thing you know is that you have too raised the stakes and then you loose the hand which happens more often than naught. Then you ask yourself the same question, who did that because I was most certain that I was going to fold but who raised the stakes. It was you my dear, the other part of your split personality, that was more dominant in that moment, and since its decision turned out to be wrong, you are not ready to accept that it was you and not somebody else. Because by not accepting the other part of your personality, the culprit one in this case, it becomes easier for you as then you have some unknown force to blame for your wrong decisions. And if you accept that it was you and not somebody else to be held responsible for this disaster, it becomes unbearable for you, because you know at the back of your mind that the other part of you was right and you could have staved off this failure, only if you had listened to mr. right of your personality.
Poker is just a simple example, but this happens to us all the time. Every single and however small decision in our life is taken by one of the parts of our personalities. And there is no mr. right or mr. wrong while making that decision, these labels are chosen afterwards depending upon the outcome of that decision.
Hence you see that split personality is not rare as we all think, rather it is the most inseparable part of a human being. So next time when you are making a decision and you are stuck while making your choices, you know that you not fighting with somebody else but with yourself only.
